Annoyed.

At no one in particular.

Just kinda having one of those, annoyed at everyone and everything kinda days.

Annoyed with the military because they have the slowest mail system to deployed soldiers on the planet. I could have driven the packages over there by now.

Annoyed with people who can’t or won’t take responsibility for their actions.

Annoyed with seemingly smart, articulate people that everyone loves, who when faced with statistics and research that actually contradict the bulldog like stance they’ve taken on a particular issue, completely ignore said research and plod on spouting shit that is blatantly false. That really irks.

I’m feeling anxious again, I haven’t been taking my vitamins, so I’m feeling the effects of that. I started again today when I was cycling between feeling ok and on the verge of tears/anger/rage.

I’m getting ready for a major wholesale trade show at the end of the month for the business, and I seriously don’t know what I’m doing.I don’t even know if I WANT to move the business ahead into the wholesale world.  I think I may be afraid of success. On the flip side, afraid of failure.

What I want:

Work that pays, it’s one thing to do something that you enjoy, but when it doesn’t pay the bills? *sigh*

Work that promotes continuous learning.

Work that promotes healthy living.

Work where I can use my damn degree.

What I need:

To feel valued

To receive moola for my hard work (yeah, thats twice I’ve listed that)

To live a healthy life

To get rid of my sugar addiction (and in preparation of this, I am systematically eating all the sugar laden crap in the house, I’m taking one for the team). I hope to start low carbing it in the next week or so.

Oh ya, and I want my husband back. He’s been gone for 5 weeks now and I’m really missing him. To the point of pain.